Disobeying Allah due to not having things the way one wanted

Q: I'm in a difficult situation that I can't solve. I have made dua for 2 years. Since I am now hard-hearted and hateful toward the deen, I have decided to stop practicing on June 27th (in 18 days). I am messaging you because I don't want to do this but the burden is too great, and by Allah not helping me the way and time I want, I want to spend my life disobeying Him so I can enter the Hellfire and receive my punishment.

A: This is the worst level of stupidity. Even the broken effort is very much appreciated. Where you cannot do something completely, it does not mean that you must leave it entirely. When Allah Ta`ala is in complete control of this world and the hereafter then it is extreme naivety to say that you will leave Him. Can there be any refuge besides His refuge.

And Allah Ta'ala (الله تعالى) knows best.


Answered by:

Mufti Ebrahim Salejee (Isipingo Beach)